I clearly realized.

The decisions I make now, can't be changed.

But with years and years of hard work to redo it.

And in those years I will become something different.

Everybody does as time passes. I will get married, maybe I wil get into debt.

But I'm never gonna be the same person I am right now.

It just might not be there any more.

Now I'm an adult.

The tough thing about adulthood is that it starts before you even know it starts, when you're already a dozen decisions into it.

But what you need to know, Tony, no lifeguard's watching any more.

You're on your own. You're your own man, and the decisions you make now are yours and yours alone from here until the end.

The voice in my head that keeps asking awful questions:

"Should I be doing more with my gifts?"

"Am I making the most out of my time here on this planet?"

I think everybody asks themselves those questions.

A lot of them are afraid of the answers.

I'm not adrenaline types and do not like extreme.

I really want to talk about is fearless, being terrified but willing yourself to the next step.

It's courage, but of the real kind.

我非常清楚的是，现在做的决定已经不能再更改了，我只能年复一年的努力实现它。我相信几年之后我就不是现在的我了。

每个人都在随时间而改变，将来我会结婚，可能也会贷款。但我永远不会是我现在这样，我也许再也不会经历这些了。

如今我早已成年，成人世界的艰难就是...你还没意识到它就已经开始了，即使你已经设想过很多次它的样子。

Tony, 你现在要明白的是:没有人会再保护你，你丫现在得全靠自己了，你现在的决定将会影响你一辈子。

我脑海里总回想这样的问题:"是不是该用我的天赋再做点什么?""我是不是充分利用了在世的时间?"

我想每个人都在问自己这样的问题，很多人害怕知道答案。

我不是头脑发热型，也不喜欢极致。

但我真正想说的是英勇无惧，那种感到害怕但仍决心向前的海燕精神。

是勇气，是真正的勇气！